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@his hse

2005-12-11T22:01:00.000+08:00

was searching my proj stuff online den yi zhuan yen he fell aslp le.... cant bear to wake him up even thou im done...hes been waking up 7 days a week in the early morns...not sch is work...den after tat still come find me...poor boi...so now come find him instead althou im super paisei at his hse haii....must get used ba!

today went orchard wif fm....shopping session! it feels like yrs since ive seen her...actually its been yrs since i met all my 4Cs.....so sorri gurls! i miss u all...definately......hai..

fm wanted to get smth for her piano teacher....and i wanted to get smth nice for him..but i noe nth can match wad he gave me...a ring...couple's ring.....breathtakingly beautiful...when he put it on my finger*float~~~ must say i got a huge shock... our 1st mth i receive ring....cant imagine the 2nd mth hahaha...and i tink i said the wrong thing to spoil the moment..."so fast give ring?!" HAI!!! im such an idiot....im so sorri boi(if u see this)....it was first reaction....coz i was scared....but i was so happi....so happi......thou i nv showed it.....when i went home n stared at it... reality set in....n i thought....i must be in heaven/storybook/fable wadever....it felt so unreal...boi....i tink im avoiding getting closer to u...it just hit me yest....i dun mean to say or do those things but im scared of wad we could be....feelings that i feel for u im trying so hard not to admit to myself... i was thinking for so damn long WHY and the onli conclusion i can come to is im scared of getting hurt....so damn scared....... my char is nv to be on the loosing end...but i feel i have lost this battle.....ive fallin so deep arghhh! ive nv liked not to being able to control my feelings...it just dosent feel safe....and ive been hurt.

i noe uve been 'bao rong' wo all this time n i thank you=) this is not smth u can help me wif....tink i onli need time....should be...haha...

Tues is our 1 mth!!~^^~

looking forward to our celebration hee hee......*mwah!;P

further down the calender is outing wif C's....looking forward to tat christmas celebration also! ^^V *double mwah!;P

BMW!!

2005-09-28T23:15:00.000+08:00

omgoshh..those carsssss..outside impressive inside breathtakingg~~...from a non car lover till a BMW supporter... really lei working here u will start to see the car logos on the street and compare..dunno y but BMW just has the 'face' there althou the 3 series look like any normal car...n i must mention this silver sports car with the hood drawn back *stun..
i dun even noe if this can be called a job.. wif a boss who likes to come in several times a day to tell jokes and a sugar high like ger i can hardly do my work.. always pulling me go toilet, go explore, go see car, go GET LOST(-_-) i hardly get any calls out..tsktsk*...ur lucky i felt sian at tat exact moment HAHA!
today i got to sit on a BMW motorbike on one of our nua trips lol..hmmm nv saw one on the street b4... it was in this corner with its OWN salesman sitting at the counter *wow..think it might be the most prestigious bike there n its SO DAMN HUGEE! chatting away with tat salesman when he asked us to try sitting.. den eileen was wearing skirt so i guess it must be me..walaooo so high! must use both hands to PULL urself up lo..(think he was laffing-_-) the back seat felt like i could fly off anytime.. n tats onli when its stationary.....
took a few pics.. okie alot of pics haha! actually cannot take pics in the showroom de but the salesman there saw our kelian faces.. WHO CAN RESIST!?!? HAHAH! he eventually gave in and v kua zhang say 'wan me start car let u test drive anot!?' hahha funny man...thou i really almost said yes lol.. in the end he even offer to help us take pics~^^~ wad a gd soul~ our partner in crime haha.. now he cant stop laffing at us whenever he comes upstairs hehs..
will upload pics of the lovely cars when i get to take with the SILVER CAR! *hehs

rubbish

2005-09-24T02:55:00.000+08:00

zhi neng zai jie shu guo hou xiang zhe ni de mei..... ni de bao za tou fa... ni shua shuai de mo yang....ni ba dao de ke ai...you xie shi jiu shi bu ke yi...zhi shi...dang shi wo yong gan yi dian jie ju hui bu yi yang maa? .. lian qian ni de shou dou mei yong qi........
i can onli believe this is how its suppose to be... u werent meant for me from the beginning..i onli imagined u were...shi wo tan xin..thinking how happi we would be before we were there. wad a fool.
be happi......for me...
haha...zhong yu song yi kou qi^^

Untitled - Simple Plan

2005-05-16T22:45:00.000+08:00

here is the MTV for this song.... enjoy^^
"Untitled"BySimple Plan

mamamiaa~

2005-05-11T23:41:00.000+08:00

finally had a decent dinner in weeks! goshhhh-_- im even too lazy to make cup noodles... just grab wadever snacks r on the table... mama cooked sooo many dishes today also dunno celebrate wad but.. yummm yummmmmmm^^, .. nv question her gd mood hahha!
im finally back to work~~ but i was late!as always>,< planned to take cab from boon lay n at tat moment found out another unlucky soul was late LOL~ a temp staff working with me aka my classmate's chruch fren(aint e world small?) called me n we shared cab down.. toke a load off my chest.. 2 latees better den 1 rite? hahaha!! evil grin* the cab trip was fine until the uncle toke a sharp u-turn n i slammed RITE INTO HIM!!!! OMGGGGGGGGGGG-__- i would be bluffing if i said nth happened... but it was just werid weird weird for tat split second.. mabbe its onli me la but pls lei slam into a guy i sure will shy! but aniwae the rest of the day was normal... he also was normal so guess is me thinkin to muchie hahahha!!!!
oh yahh! my colleages so happening siaa.... one person go make red-violet hightlights den everyone go make LOL!! sooo nice leiiii against a brown base weeeettt~~ i must say make them look v young... young at heart la hor? LOL make my dyed hair look so normal now pui!! nvm i shall not copy them.... be original hor? i go make blue highlights wUAHAhAhHAHAHAahahAHAHh!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! chuckle chuckle chuckle* ^O^

gone with the winddddddd.....................................
highlightsssssssssssssssssssssssssssss~~~~~~~~^^~

{{luvin this song now...............soothes my soul...}}

wisdom tooth out!

2005-05-10T01:16:00.000+08:00

didnt go to work today... i nv go when tat feelin comes... just no mood la... i needa change tat i noe such a bad habit... hai* couldnt get to sleep last nite... i was still turnin n flipin in my bed after 1 hr wth! i have no idea y! mabbe coz i was thinking too much.. i do tat alot ya... there was just smth i couldnt get out of my mind argh!
aniwae smartie ass me tot of a way out... changed my dental appointment from wed to today just to get my mc.... tat cost me 200 bucks!! haii the things i do...................... got my wisdom tooth out n filled 2 teeth.... but still ex..... needa go back next mon to get my thread out from my gums... eeeek... till now still cant feel the tread... guess the anesthesia hasent worn off... will probably hurt like hell when it does >,< dun really dare to touch tat area aniwae... like one deep hole now.... onli got antibiotics n painkillers to wear off the pain....
after tat went with mama to the lib.... borrowed 3 books^^ prob be reading them tml too... coz my mc till tues... or chris u wanna date me out also can LOL!
went to find chris at work again~~~ ohh i love disturbing her at work^^ when i dun feel like goin home shes always there... in some weird way hahah... she like dosent even need to work lor! keep askin her to go back her counter but she keeps coming mac to find me...... i think her boss must hate me...... as the mac was just outside Best Denki she onli need to go back when she sees customers... but also gave a clear view of wad was distracting her... so paisei u noe!
was reading my book while chris was at her counter and waited for ahfen to join us for dinner but halfway thru dunno for wad reason my stupid eye started to get swollen!! TMD so zhong lor until obstruct my view lol! n at tat moment my frens called to ask us go chalet! really is f*ck! i wanted to go plus i got mc tml lei!! so SUAY! even had to cancel dinner with ah fen n go home... SAD!!!! haiii* so nice the timing-_- i think is coz of my medicine laa... mabbe not suitable... needa see if tml still liddat ma or else needa go see doc again.... sorri guysss>,< my gals didnt go coz of me... wo ye bu yao de~ *sigh*
got to noe chris's colleage today coz she gave him my msn-__- ohh well.. betta msn den hp number rite? another online fren LOL.... too bad chris.. really not my type laa..... den the guy tat was my type she didnt give wth!! lol not meant to be laa~ haii chris wrong move lol~
waluu my eye until now still swollen lor... first time swollen so long... i think must be the medicine le sianz... plus is antibiotics must finish one.... dun feel like seeing doc laaa-_- praying hard tat if i dun take my painkillers my gums r not gonna kill me in the morn.. plsss arrrr!!!! esp the threading>,< super scared................
tonite i shall watch my korean dramas!! see how long i can ton hahha... shouldnt be v long la heixx.. ask me out anione? lol^^

!! happi mother's day !!

2005-05-08T22:48:00.000+08:00

today accompany my mum go church coz she said there was some special programme.. tot it would be v borin at first but in the end im glad i went^^
they showed this clip on a family's story abt their mother and it was so touching!! how the mother's sons spoke of their thanks to her and wad she did for them....... i actually teared haha.. lemme rem how wei da all mummies are.. they give without expecting anithing in return.. and love with unselfishness.. waa mama where did u learn to be so brave? thinkin back on how u were able to work thru the hard times for us make me .... speechless...... i think i this lifetime also wun be able to return u back... maamaaaa hurrrrrrrrr>,<
mama u dun need to keep worrying for me too coz i noe wad im doin le... dong shi liao~~ wo hui xiang le laa...
to all mummies in this world...................

~!!~!! haPPi m0theR's daY !!~!!~

~^^~

my day~

2005-05-07T02:03:00.000+08:00

met mama at toa payoh today after work!^^ there was this promo facial at Haach n we went to have a look.. i didnt do the facial but mama did n there was such a big diff! her freckles were sooo diminished n she looked radianttttt.. ohhh mYYyyy>,< after tat i found out the orginal price for tat treament was $180! HAA! wad a crazy price~
during dinner my mum found out tat someone had pickpoket her cardholder.. hengg no IC n bank cards inside as she just took them out today b4 she went out.. dunno for wad reason too mabbe her sixth sense lol.. the most impt was her $20 ezlink card so tats still ok.. but to imagine the pickpoket was beside her gives me the shivers.. touching her stuff.. waluu cant believe ppl these days... but im guessing tat person was poor n this does drive ppl to desperation... so i will not be cursing him/her hahaa..
my colleagues r so cute! dunno how it started but all suddenly tokin abt their lil bro to me.. n to my surprise.. they ALL have lil bros LOL.. even thou is lil bro but average age should be 22 baa so hmmm... u can agar the age of my colleagues hor? lol
i tot they onli jk ard la but today one of them actually bought photos of her lil bro for me to see faintxx* still so excited somemore lol! wad age liao still so kiddy sheeshhh!=X she must think im left on the shelf... althou tats a bit true la lol.. but ITS OK~~ i can take it lol.. i noe she means well la so i shall continue listening to her blah blahing haa..
tml is outie day! cant rem the last sat i stepped out of my hse.. ohh its so sadd~~ haa..
gonna meet chris for her lunch break at work den prob gonna linger ard~~ theres no where to go aniway.. if its still early prob gonna go for tat facial.. the beautician there wanted me to go back.. so i shall go back disturb heex^^ mabbe i should take my dog out for a walk.. ive been ignoring her since work im so sorri!!
okieee i think i blahhed enuff..... today is a boringggggg entry prob coz of my boreddddd mood now.. yawn* bed timee. . . . . . gud nite everybodieeeessss~

Color Stress Test

2005-05-03T22:09:00.000+08:00

Result: Green
Your Stress Level
Your attraction to green signifies your high physical desires, which you should bring under control. This inner frustration leads to many trivial disputes that you engage in with others. You get so sensitive that you mistake other people's concerns for you or their quiet suggestions as a big insult or slander. Things do not look so bright in your romantic field either. Your loss of self-confidence disables you to carry out your work effectively. You resort to your partner for some loving words but your stress level increases because you don't receive the support.

Your Energizing Color
Your vitamin color right now is pink, which may elevate your energy level. This color will revitalize you like a charging battery. Pink is so powerful that it is able to secrete the endorphin hormone, which in turn stimulates your brain to think of positive thoughts.

hmmm.. accurate?? i also dunno... haa..
wad a bummer;( no zouk... keep pushing back i wonder if i'll ever step in haha...
kay~ bed time^^=

take me as i am. or nth at all |ver.02|

2005-05-02T00:34:00.000+08:00

heYo0o ppl~~
today is the start of my blog's 2nd version.. hope u all like it^^
i tot i would take forever editing it like my first one.. but still okie managed to finish in 6 hrs.. hmmm... is tat counted long? lol
do write ur comments at my taggy n say hi!! ^^,
basically the onli achievement of the day is my blog... actually can say is the achievement of the week.. been so lazy at home n work tat i didnt even go out to relax.. n when i wanted to no one was free... sigh* all attached n work too~~
yesterday i learned yet another gd piece of knowledge... ppl dun go club n pub on sundays... onli wed, fri, sat.. thru this enquiry shan laffed at me so this shall be remembered for a long time^^
haii.. i feel so loved~~ lol..
ok tats all for today.. ENJOY!!

Hu Yan Bin - [02]Waiting For You

2005-04-30T15:58:00.000+08:00

fell in love with this song today*

yesh im waitin fer u...........................................

but waitin fer u to do wad? call me? msg me? smile at me? i dun even noe.................
im always waitin fer somtin to happen......
but it nv does...
n i always act lik an idiot in this process....
always thinkin of wad we could be n how happy we will be b4 its even here....
im just a pawn in my lil world of imagination..
n im sick of it...
u nv even look my way...

...

its time fer me to grow up...... be realistic.. wadever..
i noe nth is gonna happen...
so im done waitin...
it nv pays to be 'there' first....
therefore.. i wun torture my heart again...
im over tryin...

to my gals:

2005-04-25T21:46:00.000+08:00

today had the chance to chat with my work place tat guy coz we happened to be on the same mrt but sorri to disappoint u gers there was no spark lol! i noe some of u were rooting for him but after toking to him there was just no feel=/ i think a person's char really comes out after a tok n i guess he was just not my type.. it was just admire laa.. coz of his mature 'air' i think haha.. in another way im happy im not so muddle headed to fall for some charming guy^^it was gd i got this chance to tok with him den keep admiring from far~ v tiring one lei... heart keep beating so fast for no reason haa.. the feel is v important to me laa.. so gals dun sad.. u all can continue with ur matchmaking LOL!! no la kiddin~ u all should be glad im so free for u all ok!! dun so anxious to send me on my way la lol.. okie just an update tat im over it tats all^^

mama's day

2005-04-24T01:29:00.000+08:00

its her bday! we celebrated it on fri n it was so memorable^^
she dosent usually get out much so toke her to orchard.. walked ard wisma n taka for the necklace she wanted.. n at perlini silver the guy tat works at my work place was there! we toked a bit n he even said 'hi auntie' LOL!! he was alone as he was waiting for frens n soon went on his way~ in the end mama couldnt find one she liked so she got a pair of earrings instead.. blue crystal butterflys~~
den we went to eat at swensons n omg the queue there is horrible! no reservations after 5pm was allowed so we had no choice.. me n sis just queue up while mum sat at the bench.. n after waiting half an hour guess who we saw.. tat same guy again! so qiao siaa... he laffed at us while walking past dammitx lol..
had a wonderful dinner n sundae den we went to heeren to take our neo prints!! the result of the pics was so gd! overall the quality n everyone looked nice.. n best of all my mum got to take her first neo print! lol! too bad the pics turned out too small n she couldnt see clearly.. wanted to take again but the queue was too long... here they r!!

{{ i like this one best^^ with the fall colors it looks so warm~ }}

all my frens say i look like mama even tat work guy.. i guess i have a future picture of how i will turn out ba lol~ wanted to go disturb eddie at billy bombers after tat but too bad he wasnt working.. he was lucky lol..
was suppose to go down to centerpoint to find alicia but it was too late already... so we just went home.. long day for her n she was pretty tired as she was still recovering from her surgery.. luv going out with mum^^

HAA!

2005-04-17T03:15:00.000+08:00

omggggoshhh~ just got to noe a new fren n after toking to him for so long i found out he was the guy workin at billy bombers! me n my C's went there last week for dinner n he was our waiter lol! the world is so small hahaha... he was also tat same guy chris threatened to tell him i wanted to noe if i didnt get the bill -_- wad gd frens i have huhz? even thou i didnt even say tat+_+
TO CHRIS: guess i got to noe him after all huhz... lol! things have a funny way of turning out~
the food at billy bombers sux.. dun think will be going there again..

oh goshh~

2005-04-12T19:08:00.000+08:00

haa! im so badd... skipped work today n now sitting here bloggin.. just had alot of things on my mind n no mood.. plus my mum is finally back since mon nite n i wanted to be here with her.. she cant move ard much n im helping her with the chores.. it feels gd to have her ard again ;) gotta think of an excuse tml~ not looking forward to it.............=.=
my partner chris is attached le!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! haa! after so long shes found her partner ^^ hope she has the time of her life with her boy but now out of e 5C's the onli one left is me.. this sorta sux........ i must say was v shocked after i heard the news..... dunno y felt v weird like another person gone.... think shes gonna be more busy now....... but im v happy for her^^ gimmy ger!! now onli left us 2!! our little apartment is still waiting for us~~~ can just hug together n cry hahaha~ gimmy got go suan ming b4 tat her guy will come when shes 23.. hmmm.. when will mine come?
found out tat he lives ard amk... while waiting for bus at amk mrt saw him sitting in bus 286.. we exachanged smiles... no wonder found him so familiar.. definately saw him b4...
going to relax today!! need my life back!! anime anime anime!!! chaoOOoOoOoss~~~

P.S. JAY HAS A NEW SONG!!! WUAHAHHAHAH!! called qiao duan~ hoohohoo!! enJoy!!~!!~!! *wink*

**u better be xing fu chris!**

back on track..

2005-04-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

first of all......................

!!~!!~!!HAPPY BDAY GIMMY GURLLL!!~!!~!!

will be sure to celebrate with ya this week kayy!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

itx been a long time since i had time to sit down at my beloved labby.. my iap has left me so lifeless tat i onli have time for work n sleep! but its all worth it^^ quite enjoying my stay there so far.. althou ive onli touched the scanner lol* quite relaxed~ n emmmm... got not bad guys there heix*@^^@ all abt 28-32 but soooooo charminggggg... older guys got such mei li.. oh noo im turning into an auntieeee*O*

ive onli been there for a week n ive thrown my face already! oh goshhh.. so ps lei.. it was time to go home n while i was on my way out.. i was thinkin of stuffx n had this smile on my face(dun rem wad i was thinkin of animore).. when i opened the door to the hallway this guy was there! walking in the same direction as me to the carpark.. ive seen him a few times during lunch n he works there.. n he tot i was smiling at him!! wth!! looked at me as if was an alien -_- haiii.. no place to run also! to cover up i just asked if he was on his attachment also.. coz he does look the youngest there.. the words left my mouth b4 i realised it... i just felt like running.. exchanged a few words n when we were outside he went to find his frens... i just stood in a corner like an idiot.. im such a klutz!! arg! worst thing was he took the same shuttle bus as me to CCK mrt.. he did smile in politeness as i walked past him on the bus but he had this LOOK on his face argggg* i felt like digging a hole rite thru the floor.. aniwae think i'll be seeing more of him during my 4 month stay.. just hope he dosent think im a flirt who wanted to make conversation with him.. TOTALLY NOT. hai*

been taking the mrt to CCK every morn n it goes past kranji.. the turf club is there.. n i always see the horses riding in the early morns.. always had this passion for riding n had riden a horse a few times.. but not enuff time to fully take lessons.. watching the horses everyday has awakened my passion again n im thinking where to take lessons.. they teach u basic n u have to care for the horse.. tats wad i like.. to have time to build a relationship with the horse n with tat u ride with such pride.. such a magestic animal e horse.. i even get a cert after completion so cool^^ there is 3 places sentosa, bukit timah, n singapore polo.. need to ask more info first before i decide.. but definatly hope they have time slots during weekends so im able to go.. i dun wanna miss out again >.<

hmmm... to update my mum has just finished her surgery.. doin well^^ she still cant walk alot as its still quite painfull but hopefully by wed they will let her go home.. this place is becoming so deserted without her.. will be visting her tml after work~ n to chris n ys.. thx so much for offering to go with me^^ i noe u all got the xin n tats enuff.. but time i got more independent.. i feel so loved thou =')

okieee time for me to hit my bed~ needa wake up at 5am again.. work work workkkkkk!! such a draaaggggg* i needa see u all more!! pls dun let me fall into my cycle of no life~ gud nitey!!~!!~!! mwah*

*** a purple entry coz i felt purplish^^***

** song intro by jf.. taken from my failed bloggy lol**

hmmm..

2005-03-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

7pm de yue liang hao mei*

argh!

2005-03-23T03:06:00.000+08:00

today i think ive learned another part of me which i didnt noe i was.. mei chu xi..
my mum is still sick wasnt healed the last time n now she might have to go for a small surgery.. worst thing is she still wans to work in the meantime.. no matter how i tell her to dun go she wun listen.. even argue with her on this.. its her own stall so if she nv open its not like shi jie mo re.. she says wan to earn back rent.. wadever argh!
qi shi im v worried abt her but dunno y the words tat came out were not guan xin de hua.. onli can keep telling her not to go n argue with her.. wo ye hen xiang say yi xie an wei de hua but it wun come out.. even when she was sitting beside me i couldent figure out how to say.. onli clench fist n sit there.. y cant i just express wad i think?! zhen de hao qi ren!! wei se mo hui zhe yang? den i realise.. ive nv really expressed my feelings with her b4 like those guan xin de hua.. it just wun come out.. actually most of the time i hardly express wad i think to anione.. Y! Y! y cant i just say wad i think! im starting to wonder issit becoz i dun wan ppl to see the soft side of me.. like i really am cold n uncaring.. tats not wad i wan but y do i show tat? or is tat really the true me? i dunno animore.. im so f***ed up inside.. now writing this stupid entry i can still hear her coughing while she sleep.. ARGHH! without being able to do anithing really pains my heart.. such a gd for nth.. wei se mo hui zhe yang. . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . . im tired.. i'll think of smth tml.. pray tat god takes care of her..

!!~new.haiR~!!

2005-03-17T01:55:00.000+08:00

my rebonding n dyed hair is here!! YAY!! \^^/

actually i just finished dyeing my hair myself... n its the first time the DIY coloring actually got color ^^ so happy~ tml got 3 tests n i still haven revise still here blogging... seriously i dunno wad im thinking but really is NO MOOD! maybe coz i noe a bit wan dan laio T.T hai! can go bang wall laio... aniwae tml meeting my 5Cs for YS birthday!! HURRAY!! another gal 19th le... soon we will all be 19 also... the new age~!~!~! HAPPY BIRTHDAY YS!! going to fish n co. to celebrate n ys u r sure gonna luv ur pressie~ lol~ may i say i help them buy ^^V haa!

this week a bit crazy.. tot this fri got graduation phototaking me n gim go buy our white shirt le den got ppl call us say is the teacher send wrong email! WTH!! 40 buck fly away~ gim was soo funny... she wanna sell the shirt n keep saying f all the way lol~ i guess i shall keep it in the wraping n save it till 3rd yr ba.... -_- but to fill up my empty heart of the news....i buy super a lot of things lol! dunno y tat day super fong like cannot control... got a sweater, necklace, top, concealar, my hair dye, n hair treatment stuff~ first time gim bought a long wavy skirt also LOL! she look like those hawaii gals soOOooo cuTexXxx!!! hHAhaah*pinch cheek* would have gotten more but the store closing le lol~ LUV SHOPPING WITH U GIM!! like being tourist de feel.. mai dong xi chi dong xi.. hen hao wan orr!! ^O^

k la... my conscience coming back to me le... better go read a bit.. *GANBATTE! READING!!*

university.. zhe mo ban?

2005-02-27T00:54:00.000+08:00

didnt blog for a long time le.. quite a few things to update..
my cousin called me today being v enthu in helping me enroll in canada uni since she lives there.. she said tat if i didnt go to uni there will be v stupid since its cheap n easy for me since i used to live there.. i knew going to uni there was smth of high chance but now tat she has called ive been wondering alot.. if tat is wad i want.. althou i would onli need 2 more yrs to get tat degree.. 2 yrs overseas can change alot of things.. i think the most thing im worried abt is being distanced from my family n frens when i come back.. i would be in a diff enclosure and all of us would grow up in diff ways~ i dun to miss out in all my frens life.. but noeing the diff in salary i have to give it a second tot.. i wan to give my mum a gd life.. shes all i have and i dun wan to disappoint her.. seeing her working so hard running this family pains my heart.. for her i would go over.. shes also not as excited abt me going there alone either.. i still need to give this alot of tot..
also i might be going to TP for attachment!! just sent in my resume to the teacher and if they select me i will be there for 4 April-16 July 05.. see how it goes~
last nite i suddenly had inspiration and worked on a tune~ tried adding in some chinese lyrics to it n it sounded ok i guess lol~ my fren working in the music industry heard it and he said i sounded like jolin haa! oh man~ i hoped i sounded like ah mei more heix!XD aniwae tat was a sweet comment ty WB~
U MEDIA FREAKSS!! u gotta get some life~ seeing the pain ur putting jay thru at the press conference over the chou-hou relationship really is sickening.. get smth better to do n LEAVE THEM ALONE!! geez~ he was so stressed up tat he left his feelings at a yahoo fan forum.. this is his msg..
I often think, why can't I enjoy that much freedom as Gary & Dan Tou (2 of NQMM members). When I reach home, someone follows me. When I'm in the company, someone is waiting for me. When I'm in overseas, someone is fliming at me. I then realise isn't that so-called the "Entertainment Circle"? In this practical world today, everyone is not as naive/innocent anymore. Fliming, Art, The Great Nature, Winning Awards, Snapping Pictures Secretly, Acquaintance, Entertainment Circle, Revealing out secrets/Gossips, Winning - The ultimate goal is to crush down/shoot down (with arrows) the man who's soaring high at the top. That's ridiculously sad! How can I climb higher if I'm living in such dire conditions? It's because all of you are at the top! Tomorrow, I'll bring those PA sound system, that I bought from Japan to the company and give the desired answer to the media. Just kidding, *cough* I'll wear my black sunglasses to face this 'lovely' world.
*jay dun be disheartened!! ur fans treasure u!*
wa.. this is a long blog.. k the end~ over these few days i feel u must treasure every moment given to u~ it is a gift not smth life owes u.. 1 life. live it *lolx* (M1 commercial) ^^

moodless

2005-02-20T02:29:00.000+08:00

haii.. sianz.. just feelin bored so gonna proclaim my findings today.. jay n patty r together le.. saded.. moodless.. i noe im being childish but i dun care!! >< haii.. but patty is really elegant n demure.. if its gotta be anibody i guess shes the best choice.. jay be happy with her!! +_+;;

sho loving.. even shopping also so cuddly.. hao xiang zhe yang xin fu worr~~ *sigh* xin suan..
aiya rubbish!! ppl ignore this!

felt.artyyy``

2005-02-17T00:16:00.000+08:00

for those who worried for my mum.. shes home safe n sound le!!~ ^^V she still needs to go back for checkup but everything should be fine now..ty for ur regards!! =)
today was boring.. skipped sch again.. haiix i needa stop skipping sch but i just felt sho shag!! shori my gals~ felt arty today so i did a few designs on a pic of mine.. used Paintbrush to edit the pic coz tats the onli programme i noe how to use LOLx~ heres the nicest version i did althou it still looks rubbish heix XD nah....

mummy.hospitalised

2005-02-16T01:13:00.000+08:00

yi qian ge!! yi wan ge prayers tat ur safe.. o(T^T)o

she was hospitalised due to lack of blood in her system. . the doc said it was discovered so late tat they wanted to ward her immed. . hurrx >< they were going to replenish her blood but she had to stay the nite.. this is the first time she isnt home at nite and it feels v weird without her.. the responsibility of taking care of my lil sis is a bit hard to handle.. not the physical aspect but the psychological part.. heix.. where did tat come from ^-^
now i noe i rely on her quite alot~ mama xing ku ni le~ its when the ppl close to u arent near that u realise their importance. . must zhen xi the ppl beside u. .
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**mummy come home soon**

wE.R.touRisTsSss

2005-02-14T03:01:00.000+08:00

my 19th bday is over!! itss all bittersweet~~

i was suppose to meet my gals at PS for movie but as usual we were all late lolx=X the show started n we 3 decided to skip it. . i wanted to go to this white bridge i always saw in ch8 dramas where the scenery was so niceee. . they said it was near fullerton but i knew they wernt too sure either lolx~ we all missed the famous liang court ice cream!!! so toke cab down n decided to walk slowly up to clarke quay. . walked n walked tok photo n walked somemore. . dunno where we were but i couldnt get lost with my 2 tour guides ^^

eventually we walked up to esplanade n wanted to take the boat ride but in the end decided to explore somemore first. . we walked n saw marina!! the new yr festival i think. . so manyyy couples n its not even valentines yet sheesh -_- aniwae. . we skipped the rides n headed for the food section. . MEI SHI TIAN TANG ARRRRR!! ate n played n it was time to go home. .

TY my galss for today. . i noe u both were trying very hard to make me happy *^-^*

i got a pressie from them!! TY gim, bynne, veron, serene, n jack!! jack contributed a nice jay poster with no jay inside lolx=X and the rest gave me a set of bra -_- TY AR~ im sure u all used alot of brain cells to think of my pressie lolx~

TY everyone who wished me happy bday n made me feel special!! ^O^

here are some of the photos we toke on our tour. . .

\\~ clarke quay riverside ~//

\\. . tunnels. . tunnels. . tunnelssss. . //

\\ bynne-thief. . me-laffin at her lolx~ //

\\ gims lonely haha!! //

\\ @raffles //

\\ fullerton backkground~ //

\\ the bridge ^O^ //

\\ RAG Inc. //

\\ cHeEZzz XD //

\\ bYnee's foNee. . //

\\ acting hercules lolx~//

\\ gim throwing coin. . she hit the xue ye jing bu n smth abt marriage haha! //

\\ yeaa! yr of tiger! //

\\ end of day~ *O* //

** i luv u gals. . **

haPpY.bDAY.to..me..

2005-02-13T01:00:00.000+08:00

yeaa.. its over 12pm.. my bday ^^

the occasion tat onli comes once a yr but always make my heart clench. . should i still welcome it with open arms? maybe its coz the number baa.. 13th..

now having mixed emotions.. alot alot.. regarding many things.. dunno how to say.. many a times i wanted to spill everything out.. but theres no one beside me.. n i dun like to call anione to make them troubled.. so things nv change.. im so sorri~ i dunno y the same mistake keeps repeating.. i want to set alot of things rite.. but i dunno how.. hao shi bai worr..

maybe my birthday wish should be to be more decisive&brave.. then many things would be different.. dunno wad else to say.. i cant pen them down.. haix sorri for making the atmosphere so 'jiang' on the 2nd day of my blog onli. . i'll stop here~

to my 5Cs n sec sch frens i still enjoyed today with u all!! dun get me wrong~ ^-^

Wish u all happy new yr & valentines day~!~! xing xiang shi chen~!~! XD

and wish me happy bday baa. .

tml ive no plans. . whoever wans to see me call me baa. . i'll be out. . nites all~~*

haPpY.bDAY.BL0gie ^^

2005-02-11T21:02:00.000+08:00

YEAh!! after much hardship its finally up n running~!~! i worked on it the whole day n managed to complete it ^^V *relief~* To my fellow bloggers.. nah! enjoy! lolx`
hmmm. . not much to write today. . tml going to pris hse!! she is the MIA star in 5C hahha~ sure missed the sch days with her.. {chris u must go hor or i wun forgive u!!} n second stop will be KC's hse!! he is the MIA star gone overseas LOLx!! our ang mo boi is back haa~ gettin to see u guys tml!! im soo xing fu!! its abt time we met up. . althou i dunno wad occasion it is or wad we r gonna do tml but tats not impt~ k nothing more to blog abt. . see u guys {n gals} tml!
niTesss*
oh ya. . do say hi if u come by ^^ [taKe caRe aLL~]

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